Look in my : Eyes :Posted: March 9, 2015 Filed under: Kindness, Meditation, Yoga | Tags: Body Image, Buddhism, Competing, family, fitness, Identity, kindness, Labels, meditation, nature, Omaha, Racing, United, writing, yoga, Zen 12 Comments
You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life-
While cleaning the garage this past weekend, I came across a handful of Enduro – Mountain Bike race medals and tattered bibs from the nearly 4 years I spent living in the United Kingdom. I was preparing to pitch them in the bin outside when curiosity overcame me, I sat down on the warm west-facing front porch and started to look through them. On these worn and faded relics, I found a record of a life that seemed so impossibly exciting to me that I could hardly believe it had once been mine.
With my Son carelessly riding his bike with some neighborhood mates, I sat there, coffee in hand and reminisced about my life competing in England. When I meet fellow cyclist at a local coffee shop early on a Sunday morning, a recent swap meet or my favourite MTB trail head, they invariably inquire why I don’t compete at the same level now. The “thing” is, during nearly all of my years there, my heart longed to be somewhere else. It seems incredible when I think about it now, watching my Son creating long fluid skid marks in the road, when I’m holding objects such as this Thetford Forest MTB Racing Series podium medal, serves only to remind me of the seemingly rare and blessed glimpse of my days spent there.
I tossed the medals and bibs in the trash bin and placed my stained streaked coffee mug on top, sealing the contents inside. Hooked our now warm and cozy beagle up to his leash, grabbed a sweatshirt from inside the garage door, and proceed to tear up the now quiet neighborhood with my Son.
This is a lovely piece- very open and honest! Cx
Sometimes I think we have the power to change our destiny, other times I believe our life’s are totally mapped out…..
Great post, thanks for sharing your deep thoughts… 🙂
Thank you for your kind support as I slowly begin to reveal how I arrived in this point in my life 🙂
Reblogged this on Skin Deep ~ Mandy Moran and commented:
Deep, honest piece and makes you think about where we all are at any given moment in our own life’s.
Sometimes I think we have the power to mould our destiny, whereas other times believe we are exactly where we are meant to be and our lives are totally mapped out for us….
Brilliant writer… Originally posted on ‘Cultfit’
Thank you so much for sharing and “brilliant” may be a stretch 😉
Your welcome. 🙂
Love this post. I, too, can get caught up in…when the world is different….when MY world is different, and yet, I can also still enjoy delighting in the sound of a bird, the smell from some flower I’m passing by…….
… And what a beautiful time of year to find comfort in the delicate, rejuvenating sounds of the world as Spring awakens around us.
It is the human condition to be discontented I think, but we assume it has something to do with our outside circumstances 🙂 It doesn’t. And just because it is a human tendency, doesn’t mean that it can’t be overcome, in exactly the way you describe. Settling in to the present moment, practicing gratitude. Over and over again xo
Thank you for your patience and support as I feel out and try to convey these tricky thoughts of mine! As a dude, one who is thought to be uber competitive, its hard to convey to others how I have moved on in my life – both spiritual and physical. Tossing those memories in the bin served as a mea copa of sorts … I know what I’m about to write may be fleeting and woefully self serving every time I mention it to you, but – Thank you so much for your kindness and support 🙂
I never would have come across this awesome piece if you had not visited my page. Thank you – this was spectacular.
May your heart be filled with warmth and happiness – Take care and be well 🙂