Prelude in – Me – MinorPosted: October 7, 2014 Filed under: Meditation, Yoga | Tags: blogging, Comfort, compassion, cycling, Cyclocross, exercise, family, free range, freshly pressed, gratitude, happiness, health, hope, injury, kindness, life, love, meditation, motivation, musings, natural, nature, nebraska, Omaha, paleo, passion, pride, running, Serenity, trail running, walking, whole foods, yoga, Zen 9 Comments
There will always be a down but also always an up, your moods depends on which of the two you pay the most attention to-
In ways both big and small, our pride will be trampled on (in one way or another) during the course of a day. I suppose its safe to say that it’s nearly impossible to live life without our pride suffering a perilous blow. The ebb and flow of life … Yet, when it happens to us? We tend to take it personally – very personally, and, often enough, we beat our selves up further. Even the tiniest set back can rile our emotions and send our self-esteem into a tailspin. In part, our self-esteem reflects who we are intrinsically (our true self), however, self-esteem is also a barometer of our standing with the world around us.
The difference between my normal response to a damaging blow of my pride (an oversensitive one at that) may be summed up in one word: rumination. I am an “over-thinker” who ruminates, nauseously, in a discursive way about everyday experiences after my pride takes a hit. Especially after I finish last during a weekend race!
As I marinate in my negative thoughts, hostility and anxiety begin to seep from my very essence, sabotaging myself more than ever before. Rather than working constructively to repair the damage, I build a case for why I let myself down – A pity party of epic proportions! Sound familiar?!?
Surrender to the moment, to comfort, to serenity. The damage is done, time to move on – peacefully.
Yes, very familiar. Sometimes it feels that all of our concerns with nutrition, fitness and mental health are in the service of holding up our pride 🙂
The conversation I am trying to put forth, awkwardly at best 😉 Is exactly what you touched on in your thoughtful comment. If you can bare with my for the next few posts, when I talk about intention, core values … Its my hope that by addressing some of the pressure we face as a society, we can return to our true selves, damaged pride and all! Thank you so much for stopping over – Take care 🙂
I can relate to this as on top of the normal introspection thing with my lifelong focus on metaphysics, spirituality and being a healer, i launch into “what do I need to heal about myself?”, “where is this coming from…is it past life?”, “why/how did I create this?”…on and on.
I would suggest though that self esteem is not really our true self, it is our ego, formed from societal and familial reference points, on top of ancestral patterns that get passed down.
Much of a spiritual and mindful path, I believe, is about releasing that false sense of self, that false matrix about what is good or bad about ourselves, that pattern of looking outside to others opinions, our performance, etc.
i am still working on allowing more and more self love and acceptance and living in the truth of my divinity, magnificence and beauty that lies at my very core, because THAT is what I truly am, THAT is what you truly are!
My goodness – Thank you so much for your insightful and inspiring thoughts. I am deeply grateful for having met you, seriously! 🙂
I feel the same way. At the moment I don’t have any plans to come to Iowa, but would love to meet and your family some day. I would like to see the Field of Dreams and the Raj healing center in Iowa, though 🙂
As a fellow thin skinner, I know how you feel 😳 Thankfully all my work on not taking things personally is paying off…it’s not all about me!
Exactly my friend 🙂
A ruminator myself, my form of surrender is to take a brief timeout to sit quietly with myself, returning to this big world a more whole person. Thanks for your meditation.
I spent the better part of the morning sitting quietly with my thoughts, in awe of the moon and the stillness of the early morning. I often take these “things” for granted … Thank you for gently reminding me 🙂