:Letter:Posted: November 30, 2015 Filed under: Kindness, Meditation, Mindfulness, Yoga | Tags: Buddhism, Cambridge, Camyoga, compassion, kindness, love, meditation, Mindfulness, yoga 6 Comments
Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable. Be honest and frank anyway-
Dear yoga studio,
Not long ago, I visited you after settling into your lovely city. This letter is nothing personal, it’s just that you remind me of who I am not: someone who is vain and self-centered.
To clarify, I’m not the least bit upset with the caring teacher(s) and the helpful staff. It’s just frustrating to be surrounded in a studio environment, by things I can’t stand, and embarrassing to acknowledge how I used to act that way.
My Saturday morning vinyasa flow “experience” also made me realize that I live in a world full of “things” I don’t love, and sometimes, its me.
Which makes me wish for one of two things this dreary Cambridge morning: to become a vain, “look at me yoga student” in a trendy studio, or to become more compassionate towards myself and those around me. And seeing I’m too cheap to play the lottery, I’m striving for compassion. Besides, I suspect that compassion is considerably more fulfilling than being sweaty and having a chiseled body (or so I tell myself in the mirror every morning).
Understand, I have nothing against your Lulu clad, and mirror adorned studio. And yes! It is possible to attend some classes without falling upon the hedonic treadmill that is egotism and vanity.
I guess what I’m just trying to say is, that I ache for a more nurturing and compassionate yoga studio environment. What seemingly began as a harshly toned letter, has gently evolved into a “Thank you” note.
Without the heart opening class in your studio, I never would have fully realized who I’m not: someone who needs to look “good” in order to feel good.
I hear you Jeremy. Wish you lived close to my studio!
We can always share notes and inspiration via the inter – webz 🙂
Be inspired and take care!
when i first moved to my neighborhood it took me a few months to find a place I really clicked with. Now that is my regular studio…and because I feel safe there and now understand what I want, i can go just about anywhere and be fine. but i needed to find the me in my practice first, and understand that it wasn’t about that “me”…
being grounded in my self ad my body and my yoga practice has given me the space to practice happily anywhere.
Keep searching, it’s there.
I needed to hear this from you, thank you 🙂
I have missed your honest and heartfelt writings… And you can’t go wrong with compassion. As always, starting with you.
Words can not express how much I miss your classes and the nurturing environment of OPY.